It’s not a big deal that people leave right? I’m 20 soon to be 21, which means I’m at the peak of understanding almost all that is to be about being an adolescent who has been dealing with a constant battle with my self altered ego or imaginary bipolar that I think I have. We’ve gone through it over and over again whether it comes to a close friend, a decent senior or a partner. I never said that it’s easy to let go of a relationship we built with people; in fact it’s painful, staggering and hurtful. You are constantly paranoid of letting the person go because you’re afraid that they’ll move on faster than you, and all you have is nothing but a rage of emotional conflicts that are all so abusive and distressing. You start to react in ways your mind can’t even control, which only provoke this present scarred relationship you’re having with this person. It has already broken but subconsciously you stress yourself too much still gasping to fix it but despairingly all the striving only results to a ramification of eruptions. You fail to put trust in them even though you convinced them that you’re fine and are willing to continue this journey despite all outcomes. You convinced them with a handful of so-called friends that you risk your trust on knowing that by the end of the day they might be worth nothing. It takes sacrifices, despite the fact that it may seem unfair to you. You utter to yourself “Why am I the one bearing all the unnecessary sting?” Well, just suck it up. There’s no point being stubborn like a spoilt brat wanting everything like an immature child, it’s time to grow up whether you like it or not.
This post should not end in such matter, but I just have the urge to spurge it out because I know how painful it is to loose people. In fact, I’m still struggling with it. Pondering what will happen if things gone to fade between so-and-so and me? Hence, hold on to those whom you care.
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