‘Problematique’

The fact to see people overly grousing, whining about how stressed they are due to finals simply makes me want to puke. Another fact that Chemistry is being ridiculously difficult makes me want to dig my entire colon out from its place, Parasitology is fun but turning everyone into extreme paranoids being absurdly aware of everything you eat.

Aware that there is going to be Taenia saginata in my plate of beef steak, or Taenia solium in any pork dish; been researching on a presentation due tomorrow on flea and lice spending almost 50 minutes googling through medical values of flea and lice.

What?! Medical values? I’m serious, seems that  a protein responsible for fleas' astonishing jumping power could be harnessed to repair damaged arteries. Lice can lessen a hyperactive immune system and reduce the risk of developing immune dysfunctions or even treat inflammatory bowel diseases.

God has his amazing creations; an answer to reply when the next time people mumbled off ‘why did God even bother to create fleas and lice?!’

Chemistry experiment on Physical adsorption

Weather is getting hotter by the day, an average of 25 – 30 degrees everyday; streets are filled with girls wearing all sorts of spring dresses/floral attires. Benetton having their promotion by giving off 15% sale for 3 items worth of purchase. Bullshit, I couldn’t even pick anything from there when a piece of cardigan costs more than RUB2899, approximately MYR300.

Retail therapy is harder to achieve when anything to everything seemed to cost double or triple more than usual. Lunch breaks are even more pathetic now that I need to save on almost everything, well at least proper salad for dinner works fine for me.

Screw economy.

Random x10: Dennis Boon ditched room 3-08 to some apartment but yet his blurriness seemed to be able to transmit through wireless connection via Skype.

Still waiting for a parcel, Gawai back in home and a list of greens to buy to pave my way to healthy life.

The rage of ludicrous, farcical and deranged cravings/wantings/decision-makings or anything related that makes me go schizophrenic stroke once again.

Getting a vintage beige colour pants/ vintage denim.

Getting a decent or more vintage looking tee.

Shoes? Forget about it, the entire Russia has no size for my feet.

New apartment? Still in progress but desperate for a green light.

Salad for dinner has been progressing well; the urge to stay healthy and to save some bucks which obviously doesn't work since tomatoes and capsicums costs more than rice.

Inserts list of other deranged things like downloading 2 seasons of 'American Dad' and listening to 'Neon Trees' and 'Matt Nathanson'. Music swing much. 

Situations are not helping at all, with living standards this high; even eating grass and roots won't help me save up much. If money grow on tree, I'll probably be a farmer by now. The one that can even grow tree on Mars or even the Sun. 

I See Your True Colours

Colour Catalyst

So, we planned a BBQ session despite the fact that finals are around the corner; initially it was supposed to start at 5 but due to the so called ‘Malaysian time’ mindset, we were 45 minutes late. 

‘Workers’ working so hard setting up the fire.

Impatient people glaring at the pile of wood, yes glaring so that it may just magically flash in flames.

Me, the ‘most’ hardworking one, making sure that the fire doesn’t die off.   

Eelin & I trying to balance in order to make a 3-legged silhouette

Camwhored

Using the ball in various innovative way; like kicking it and modeling with it

We had chicken, pork, capsicums, potatoes, marshmallows! 

Sang through the night with guitarists like Mike & Dennis and vocalists like Eelin & Jacquelyn.

Everything ended as the night starts to get dark, around 10PM. Awesome outing and annual BBQ with my awesome friends.

Cost Nothing To Dream

‘President’Akinola who inspired me heaps

“It cost nothing to dream.. And everything not to”

What It Seemed

It may seemed that people pay less attention to you.
It may seemed that people bother less about you.
It may seemed that people doesn’t appreciate much on what you’re striving for.
It may seemed that people do not support you.

***

Just take a break and stop thinking, pondering and fussing about all this and just persist on what you’re doing.

I believe in determination, perseverance and faith.

Eventually you will land on somewhere, not the right destination…

but somewhere even better.

Meredith Quote

Meredith: "If you can think of a reason; any reason at all why the universe is so screwed up and random and mean; now would be an amazingly good time to tell me because I really need some answers."

Family

There’s a reason why God introduced them to me; to watch over me, to lend a helping hand when I’m desperate for one, to pat my back for the best support, to listen my hearts out when there is no one there, to care and love for me but most importantly… to help me grow up mentally and spiritually in my walk with God.

Friends, brothers & sisters whom I’ve met and have touched me deeply; inspiring and teaching me as I grow up to be a better person. It’s vital to meet such people that can really change your life instead of a bunch of friends for the sake of fun and only leave you when you’re bare and nude.

I love these people so much.

Like what my sister, Lily Chong told me:

“Family sticks together”

Farewell Videos

Here’s a video did by a team of people from our very own Jesus Embassy (J.E) media team.

This is something that we came out with as well.

Yes, we sacrificed a lot of time making all these videos, every step has to be meticulous and precise. People will be wondering, “medical students have so much time to dissipate and waste?” Rubbish, this is called passion and talent.

I believe God gave each and everyone of us a purpose and talent in life, we have a purpose to be healers but I hold strong to my passion in doing things I love.

Creativity, Innovative and geeky ideas all lead by Jesus Embassy (J.E) media team; we rock!

Fake

Taken by the bus stop

A hush, an unnoticeable gag and a rude gesture.

It was not expected by this brat especially on a fine Friday when he atypically decided to crawl up from his humble crib extraordinarily earlier for today. He hung up a smile, the one where he kept under the piled,  grimy drawer.

Within a swift, it was all crushed by a muffle. He wondered by himself, “what did I do to deserve this?”

The room was cynical, reigned by a defeatist with the utmost pressure of gloom darkness and murkiness. Slowly, it spread, infusing those who approached the near corner. Within such perimeter, not many wants to even try to take any step further.

Sooner, it reached a point when the brat finally realized that such opposing force only applies to certain people. It was a long run for him to grasp the slightest understanding on such condition. Take a mirror and you’ll see your own reflection but place a mirror here, it shows not a reflected object but a line of different faces even though reflected by the same person. So many faces, confused at which is true or bogus.

He faced the one who portrays the most reluctance, unwillingness and despise, always being shunned, ignored when he trusted this one person to lend a helping hand. Worst, being retorted just because he couldn’t fulfill his standards to be at the similar par as her.

But things are different for others, he wonders how many mirrors does this person carry in her bag? How many masks does it need to be put on in order to make her realize.

Wretched to know that attitude couldn’t be changed in a day.

I recently downloaded this app called “Got Questions.org” on my iPod, it’s basically Christian related questions answered. So recently I had an urge to ask a questions as well regarding the profession as a plastic surgeon.

Question 207584: Is pursuing a career as a plastic surgeon against Christianity?

Answered by: Joseph

Answer:
Scripture indicates that we are “fearfully and wonderfully made,” (Psalm 139:14-16) that God knew us before we were born and that he designed us to be just as we are. There are in this world a vast number of people who do not accept the way that God designed them. They are self-conscious of every imperfection and therefore view God’s work, themselves, as deficient. It is not such a leap to go from thinking that God didn’t know what He was doing when he created us to thinking that He cannot be trusted in other areas of our life.

On the other hand there are many examples in Scripture of people who were maimed from birth and that God healed (Luke 6:6-10; John 9:1, 7). All these had infirmities that appear to have been ‘designed’ into their lives by God. There are two differences in these sorts of cases; firstly, each truly had debilitating problems, and secondly, God got the glory from their recovery. There are many surgeons today who repair cleft palates, large incapacitating scars, spina bifida, and the like. All of these represent serious disabilities which when repaired can, potentially, aid a person in fulfilling their purpose and bring glory to God. Regarding this last comment, some years ago I read an article in a newspaper about an intrauterine surgery for spina bifida. The paper told how that after the successful surgery, and as the surgeon was suturing the womb, the still yet unborn baby reach out and grabbed hold of the surgeon’s finger. The article and the surgeon, expressed how unthinkable it would be to consider that child a ‘fetus,’ and condemned abortion as wrong.

Scripture tells us to be content (1 Timothy 6:8), to not worry about our physical features (Matthew 6:25, 27, 33), and to allow God’s strength to be perfected in our weaknesses (2 Corinthians 12:9). The Scriptural principle of self-acceptance of God’s design is an important one to prayerfully consider in all our pursuits –are we bringing people closer to Jesus? And this is simply a consideration of eternity; will it have eternal value? Elizabeth Taylor, for instance, may have ‘corrected’ every ‘problem’ that she thought she had, but she did not take her face with her (1 Timothy 6:7). 

Therefore, “Whether you eat, or drink, or in whatsoever you do, do all to the glory of God.” (1 Corinthians 10:31)

Nevertheless, I will still find time to discuss it with my pastor or bring it up in cell groups, or maybe just pray that God will whisper a proper explanation.

宝恩

Doing the Eelin Tan ^__^V pose and obviously Mike as usual, acting cool refuse to do so

Had Dennis’ birthday celebration pre-celebrated during the weekends at his new apartment, home-cooked food but nevertheless it was all scrumptious considering the fact that everyone knows how to cook so well.

Mike & I got him this ZARA hat [worn by him in picture] months ago before the actual date when he was dying to get it during sales but we managed to coax him not to get it since it was so called ‘expensive’. But seriously it was dead cheap during previous sales, and baboon really DID listened to us and decided not to get it and finally.. ended up heart broken, not knowing that we actually bought the last hat and kept it in our closets for months!

An awesome buddy deserves an awesome ZARA hat, a good cake and a great dinner.

Grateful

Random snap on my way back home from Anatomy

Typical Russian lunch, borsh as appetizers, salad and main course, and brown bread

It’s all about noticing things around us, we tend to take for granted at things really easily and missed out being grateful or appreciating things that people had done for us. Sometimes all we expect is a little ‘Thank You’ and not by stabbing us on the back with a blade.

To be beholden; a golden attitude. It is really churlish to be unappreciative, typically when that person has lend their helping hands over and over again.

Realize that we may not survive certain hardships without the help of those who helped. We are not independent permanently; admit that we are weak, broken and desperate for help sometimes. There is really nothing to be ashamed off. 

An email sent to my mailbox inspired me to blog about this.

Down with a terrible influenza, cough and lost of voice; what’s worst? A whole week of colloqs, events need to be planned &  piling  jobs that need to be done.

Thought: How can people be so ungrateful yet took for granted so easily?

Old & Fail

The cities buried in defeat, crush and subdue; as I walked along those anonymous streets, not paying attention to these no-name streets in my mind. Feeling like such a looser, potent failure and harsh collapse.

So drugged, vogue in catastrophes. Making nonsense, feeling all messed up from within. It sucks when you are suffocated and drowned by your own doubts.

Got a pencil and sketched something that resembled much of a failure, it can be addictive like a drug addict. When you just keep on failing accomplishing something that are beyond your own standards. That’s how you’ll end up with, like this picture, old, wrinkled and right on the face – FAIL!  

Will complete the half-drawn ones any sooner.

Patience, Tested

Today God tested my patience, not only today but it’s today that I really felt pressured that He is testing my patience. It’s an arduous and straining effort to not blame God; like what I’ve been taught, God doesn’t train his disciples on a bed of roses. Things might be at it’s down point, when we just want to shun ourselves away from the ratchet world of people that are absurdly inconsiderable.

An entire afternoon of hustle and bustle, dealing with people that acted so perpendicular to what we want them to.  The discernment that human relations are subjects so difficult to deal and handle with, they can get all tangled up and in the end we end up being tied to knots of disagreement & controversies.

A mean reply that got all of us to scream, the urge to act physically but part of me disagrees of such irrigational act. Patience, that is when God’s message popped into my mind. Something that I’m severely lacked off since young is patience.

It took me a lot of time & effort to finally realize the importance of patience, the balance between relations for instance. Without it, I will be acting in my most uncivilized ways dealing with coarse, boorish & vulgar people that has no sense of mentality, literally!

This sick circle wheel repeats once in a while, my patience being tested once in a while, being prompted to explode once in a while.  

Sooner or later, I’ll master this thing called ‘Patience’ that daddy once told me well.

40% Love 60% Heart

This world is getting ill, I wish that someday people will begin to realize again that there is a mere chance that this world can drown everyone in love; so deeply in love that we suffocate and barely able to catch a gasp. 

The feeling of clenching the arms of our loves ones, clutching them tight enough to let our hearts go irrevocably gone.

Someday people will realize.

Paper On Story

Slightly sleep deprived, indolent and slothful; I allow them to engulf me slowly from the inside not aware how critical can the side effects be. That’s why it took me weeks to complete this piece of artwork.

People used to wonder, why are all my artworks black/white/shading/plain strokes without any colour?

I am cognizant that the fact that I’m being too sluggish and lethargy to even bother to colour, personally adding hues and colours require much patience and attention. Every dab and swab needs to be done meticulously or else the whole thing will be smeared and finally you’ll end up with a dirty piece which I always have problem with and finally they end up rotting in the garbage bin.

This time I was patient and wanting to add some hues to it, just to add some sparks to the mundane life that’s been reverberating around me.

Materials: Stabilo coloured pens, wooden colour pencils, highlighters and lots of patience.

When I totally feel like doing nothing, only to sleep, eat and slack, lax and to feel lackadaisical. Notice how ‘knitted’ lines that I drew gives a welcoming ‘bed’ effect. Maybe not for others but me the self-proclaimed art connoisseur said so, thus it shall be it.

Mushrooms, yes! Mushrooms! Equivalent to laziness.

Added more contrasting colours just to bring all the different elements together and tie them into a big knot! Go wild and crazy with colours cause’ that’s how life is supposed to be, ignore the fact that you’re being watched or observed with suspicion.

Like art, they can be in any form, literally.

Times when I’m a dreamer with a huge cloud above my head, filled with dreams that I hope to fulfill someday. This is the space that I want to be in, free from the oppressive heat of hostile manners, discouragement, impaired hopes and false support.

Clouds and dreams seemed to correlate to one another, take time to let dreams shape themselves like clouds. With no limits.  

Before I even realised, a piece of A4 paper fully doodled and amazingly coloured with thoughts and dreams resembling what I have to tell.

A story that persists through time, not understand by many but jocular and lighthearted for those to lay their eyes on it especially when life goes all hectic with books piling up abutting one another.

Story On Paper

Out of instinct, out of urge and out of compulsion, I tend to tell a story in a way different from others. My story portrays my current feeling, thoughts and dreams maybe for that moment or maybe for a timeline if I allow lethargy to take control of my passion.

Inspirations are everywhere, you just need to observe meticulously and keep the pace down for a second or two.

‘Chasing Cars by Snow Petrol’
Inspired to doodle some lighted wires with assorted bulbs, it reminds me on my room back home.
Mike’s [also the photographer behind all these stunning pictures] watch by ‘Baume et Mercier’

When phalanges doesn’t corporate with the brain and strokes and touches go all sideway and losses their track on paper, that’s when I resolve to stronger and bolder strokes with great appreciation to my decent Pilot gel pen. 

A splash of florescent hue added with highlighter just to get some attention – ‘Because You Can Do It!’

I always have in mind that imaginations and wildness somehow adheres to one another, like a wild woman with bolded shade of red lipstick, in blond with highlighted green hair and the wideness of her eyes and detailed eye lashes.

Art & it’s way of seducing people.

Vintage, I’m still having a crush on it. It’s authenticity and originality. So lovely & romantic hence I created a tree made up of hearts and leaves, branches that are both intricate. Added an owl and some detailed strokes on a bulk gives it a whole new vintage look.

Quote: Lyrics by Chase Coy I assumed, couldn’t recalled much. I guess that’s the downfall for an art enthusiast having zero knowledge in music or whatsoever.

Mumsie

Happy Mother’s Day & Happy Birthday

I Had Fun

Came across these two graphic tees selling at a really amazing low price of less than MYR25 per piece. Shops like TOPMAN/ZARA are selling some really nice attires like skinny jeans, cool graphic tees, mostly summer wear which got me really anticipated for Spring sale.

TOP: Some smeared hue of blue and a vintage scenery.

BOTTOM: According to Areena, it’s like Lady Gaga’s lips sucking on my body.

Went for bowling & arcade with some of the batch mates, screwed up a few times for my 1st time playing bowling but it was worth the fun, it actually made me realized how interesting and awesome batch mates are.

Had some Mohito and pizza for dinner to summed up this awesome day.

Will be heading for a 3 day camp this weekened.