Tired

I am tired

Life has been so difficult for me lately, 10 days in the hospital and I felt that I’m miles away from everyone else.

 

My first day of Physics class, I literally flunked the quiz since I wasn’t present for class last lesson. I was staring at the blank paper, wondering what formulas to scribble. It’s traumatic and scary when you’re noticing that everyone in class were answering the lecturer’s questions except me.

 

Lots of calculations of electric and circuits, luckily I managed to pull myself through it.

 

I owe my Russian teacher 2 texts all together and obviously I have no idea whether I can find time to memorise them or not. It is all hellish and the moment.

 

Thursday, I had Chemistry control tests and 100 objective questions. Similarly, like what everyone mentioned that everyone would definitely screw the 100 questions since questions were too general. True enough, I was shooting all the way until I sense hope when I answered the control test.

 

Cerebrum undergoing a lot of pressure but it was all okay.

 

It was all random, a decision to visit ZARA that day with Mike, Kalis and Eelin. Forked out some cash to get myself a jacket from ZARA. I call that therapy and reward.

 

Going for a 3 days ‘Desperation Camp’, hopefully it will be a time for rejuvenation and refresh. But at the same time, my Russian text needs to tag along with me and I need to squeeze out some time to memorise it before I fall into my own grave.

 

Sleep - Gossip Girl – Medication –Notes – Rest – Time Management -Prayer

Надежда

I saw this word ‘Надежда’ it means ‘Hope’ in Russian on one of the walls outside the hospital on the day I was discharged.

Like what God wants us to have, hope. It’s a message… You see, someone who is hopeless and alone usually cannot help themselves out of their situations. They have a great sense of loss and helplessness. We must come alongside and bring the good news of Jesus Christ and all that He has to offer.

Hope is real.

Drop

I was studying Biology in the studying hall 2 weeks ago until I felt a sudden chill down my spine, the next thing you know I was wrapping myself with 2 layers of thick blanket. Underneath, I was shivering like mad.

Soon after I was down with a high fever and wasn’t able to walk about to do much things. This condition lasted for almost a week without any recovery. Lastly, I headed to the nearest policlinic and they advised me to go straight to the hospital.

I was emitted to the infectious hospital for about 10 days. The high fever didn’t alleviate till day 3, my body was literally burning every night as my temperature shot as high as 39 degrees, which was pretty much serious.

I had shots, was on drips, given various vitamin injections. In addition, my level of leukocytes was too high compared to an average person. I seriously had no idea how serious my condition was but I’m sure the doctors were all prioritized in dealing with my case.

Seniors like Hsu Zane, Huey Yee, Xun Jin, Melvin, Hannie and a few more having their cycle there managed to visit me and send me food every day. But still life in the hospital was tormenting, facing four walls, with a bed so uncomfortable that it gave me body aches all over. The food was indeed overwhelmingly disgusting.

A huge thanks to Vainny for calling me all the way from Miri, burning her RM25 bucks. Chit chatting with cousin is priceless.  

I prayed almost everytime, at times I wonder why is all this happening to me? At this time especially. God managed to heal me, my fever was gone after a week in the hospital but eventually my blood infection still remain static. Luckily the doctor managed to discharge me a day before my birthday. Miracles do happen!

Now, my leukocytes are slowly recovering back to normal but sadly I still couldn’t get a proper diagnosis since the doctors have no idea what is the reason behind all my sickness. Maybe it’s God doing his work? I think so.

Thank you everyone for your prayers :)  

Another Surprise

Apparently, my birthday didn’t end that early.

I had dinner at ‘Riveria’ with Eelin, Kalis & Kenji. By the time we head back to hostel it was already 10.30PM. Remember about the water break down I mentioned before? Yeah, I had to use a pail of water reserved to clean myself in the bathroom. Troublesome much?

I entered my room with only a tee and towel on, it was pitch black until everyone appeared from no where with a cake. It was the most embarrassing and shocking moment I ever experienced for my past 18 years.

With only a tee and towel?

Skip the part I got changed and yaddda, yadda, yadda…

Me with the cake

My awesome friends

Getting crazy

Everyone

I Turn 19

My birthday turned out to be a hell lot of mess, maybe ‘mess’ isn’t the proper term but considering the fact that I’ve been given endless surprises by my fellow batch mates and seniors… ‘mess’ would perfectly fit in.

Thanks to the big one up there who managed to remove my fever, the doctor miraculously discharged me a day before my birthday! What a coincidence right?

So, what actually happened during the big day. The whole region suffered from a massive water break down, so there was totally not a single drop of water last Saturday. Typically headed for Chemistry class, decided to tag along with Dennis to Shen Yew’s new apartment to take a look until Eelin forced me not to since she has another 10kg parcel waiting at the post office. Without any doubt, I ended up with Eelin in the post office and alas! She forgotten her receipt.

We decided to go back to our hostels until Mike called saying that he’s eating alone at Grand Cafe. Perfect timing I was thinking since he was alone, why not accompany him. Stumbled upon Dennis along the way without feeling weird until the moment I stepped into Grand Cafe and saw a whole table booked, all of my batch mates sitting there.

What a surprise! Then I realised… They had planned all this for my birthday.

How awesome are they?

Birthday picture [ ignore my ugly braces ]

I had a slice of ‘Tiramisu’

I had a great afternoon, a great time to bring everyone back together again.

Happy Birthday to me :D

Note To God

Thank you for changing my life, throughout the journey…

I’ve learned to not take things for granted and to appreciate the wonderful tiny things that’ people do for me. Maybe we might not realized it, but all the tiny, miniature, minute things may add up into something life-changing.

Life is not as easy as it seems and along the way we fall and hurt ourselves, somehow we may even reached a point where we simply want to break down and let everything out. We always think that we’ve grown up, but in our hearts eventually we will forever be mummy’s little boy or daddy’s little girl.

We have a tender heart that needs to be cared, so fragile that sometimes it may break anytime. It’s not our fault that we were weak mortals, it’s because we need God by our side in everything we do.

At moments of joy, fun and exultation we are prone to ignore God and only seek Him when we have troubles. But did He abandon us? No, He never ever forsakes us and in fact He listens to all our needs and prayers when we desperately seek for Him.

Our God is so amazing that no words can describe his awesomeness. Sometimes His blessings just pour and pour that even our sacks and bags cannot sustain it. It’s all the abundant and unlimited blessings that He showered on us.

When we’re facing a dead end, it’s hard to get people’s support and you just have the desperation to get though it. By saying prayers, take a moment of silence and just talking to God; things will eventually ease off and soon you’ll be able to find peace. 

I still thank God for everything He has given me, despite when I’m at my worst of times because I know it’s a way of increasing my faith towards Him as well as to love Him more than ever.

Maggie

Huge thank you to

Dennis/Banana/Malay/Fungus Boy 

for sparing me curry Maggie!

More Cakes

My lunch basically consists of cakes and muffins now, due to braces my teeth still hurts to an extend that I coerce myself to eat baby food. It’s not THAT bad.

Russian cake and a rock-solid muffin which was later given to Areena cause’ I realised I can’t take a bite at it. Had this during Physics class break.

Cheapest chocolate cheese cake ever, it was such a huge piece that costs approximately RM7 after conversion. I had this after Biology class.

Now my blog makes me hungry

Parcel

The most exciting thing that could possibly occur while studying abroad is when you received your 9.65 kg parcel all the way from Kuching, and more than half of it is filled with Milo and Nescafe'!

Despite no 'Mamee' or 'Maggi' noodles which is like one the of most important things ever invented. Now I have... I repeat a box filled with...

Milo & Nescafe'  

Braces

* inserts vulgar picture of the brat with his braces *

Apparently I had to wake up at before 7AM but snoozed my alarm all the way until 7.15 when I realised “Shit! Class starts at 8AM!” Lugged my lethargic body out from the coziness of bed and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth.

For a split second my teeth were jolted and pierced, the immense unforeseen pain just stroked, at that moment I am aware that I actually have braces on.

It didn’t hurt that much after I had them on, well the tightening part wasn’t pleasing or whatsoever but I wouldn’t classify it as pain? Just a slight tinge of discomfort that's all. Rotted 2 hours having a Russian dentist performing surgery in my mouth, definitely not fun at all.

The whole procedure was a bliss, not much pain only discomfort. The feeling of having foreign object – metal, in my mouth. Irritating of course, my liquid diet officially started last night. My dinner consists of bread in milk and Dan Brown’s The Lost Symbol, happy now Kho Leet Liang?

Back to present, cleaning my teeth takes approximately 20 minutes compared to my regular 7 minutes. Including facial wash, adds on another 10 minutes… at sometime I think someone would hurled me out from the bathroom.

My braces like what Angelina Tan said “BARBIE DOLL, GREEN ALIEN, BLACK BEAR” consists on 3 colours – black, green and pink [ don’t ask me why ]

Back to the top, I WAS late for class, only when we arrived teacher informed that today’s session had changed to 10AM. Bummer! There you go, I wasted 2 hours of time walking, blogging, skyping instead of doing something more productive like SLEEPING.

I finally had my braces on :D [ Gabrielle Jee ]  

Easter

Easter cakes we sold almost everywhere, it’s so delicious that I couldn’t help myself to get 2 of them. Too bad they’re only sold during Easter week.

Easter was great, our leader Dennis came back from America. J.E members head to attend one of the local Russian service. We had amazing testimonies for that day, it was difficult for me to catch every word the Russians were saying but somehow I managed to get the main idea.

Went to some Italian restaurant and had Easter lunch together with Hsu Zane, Mike, Jun, Lily & Kelvin. I had pork chops which bloodily forced me to fork out 240 rubles  per dish, thumbs up for it but obviously it wasn’t worth the hole in my pocket.

But this desert, ‘Brownie’ cake from ‘Kulinaria’ was scrumptious. Perfect slice to end Easter!

Happy Easter everyone :D

Ridiculously Emotional Facebook Status

Ever seen obnoxious premature kids post their excessively on their Facebook status? Well, I’m really sick and detests them to their every bit. What’s the main point of telling the entire Facebook universe about your moronically insane love feeling?

Here’s one, for those banana people who couldn’t read Chinese, I’ll be honored to translate them for you.

I blog about things that poke my eye balls, no harm :)

A’s status: *sobs sobs* I know I’m not suppose to bother you… Goodbye I won’t bother you anymore. Actually I love you so much *Awh!* but sadly you have no feelings towards me anymore. I understand that it’s best that we remain as friends. Bye

4 flee brains ‘liked’ it for don’t know what reason. *Wait, cause’ their skulls are separated from their sutures and infested with flees*

B: Love is not a game. Someone who’s serious in a relationship will not end it by any means. *Quoting like some philosopher*

A: I SHOULD DIE! I’M USELESS!!! *Damn dramatic*

A: No one will give any opportunity to me! *Sad music plays*

A: I WANT TO LEAVE!!!!!! *Obviously he commented on his status 3 times to gain B’s attention*

B: Why are you saying such things about yourself…Have confidence in yourself. You can do it! *See…. and she pities the arse*

A: You’ve changed, not the [ inserts B’s name ]  that I’ve known. *Typical fake sympathy slogan*

B: Really? Changed into?

A: You changed into someone prettier. *Pukes!*

A: Don’t want to disturb you chatting with Kim… Bye bye.