Many happenings are cluttered all together recently, those down casting and despondent ones especially. There is always a thin lining between sorrow and relieve, crisis just interferes with our lives despite the fact when our schedule is already overly packed.
A senior of mine was found drowned; it was such a tragic news for everyone. I don’t know him personally but still… having someone living 3 doors away from you passed away? That’s pretty difficult to swallow. Here’s a great blog post about him written by Leet Liang
The day of the incident we had to cram our brains for Physics for the next day, how savagely terrible is that? Obviously no one was in the mood for books as I barely absorbed much from what was placed in front of my study table. As a result, only one person managed to score a 5 with another friend and myself with a 4+. Not that satisfied thanks to careless mistakes.
I had less than a slice of winter melon yesterday, assuming that I was able to chew on it but ended up with a broken wire from my braces. Smart arse.
My loyal N78 who has been loyally serving me for 2 years plus is currently facing problems. Whenever I switch it on, keypads will turn partially paralysed until I manually lock and unlocked the screen. If it happens to automatically lock itself, then the lights will be gone and I’d have to switch on my phone again.
Suck big time, I’m still in process of saving every cent for a new phone.
Went souvenir shopping with a couple of friends, happy with the results but definitely a huge hole burned in my pocket. We had a drink at the chocolate factory, thumbs up for my chocolate banana milk shake cause’ it was ten times better than Areena’s one.
I had a fruitful conversation with Lily, most probably stucked in Naples with her travelling. Also glad that certain things are solved after years of hiding and covering, I owe him a big one.
This brat is happy that he’ll be home in less than 2 weeks, just like Kenji’s smile.
Those tiny ties and knots of certain things in life brought back sparks and glints to my days. When two things meet; past and present. it illuminates the blur, obscure and dim images that vividly appears in my mind.
The human mind holds an endless citadel of memories. Part of it stored and treasured, part of it buried, cremated to dust…contrastingly.
It took me courage, bravery and valour to once rediscover and revive a slight section of what I used to think it had vanished. Apparently it has been wondering in the present time despite the fact that I’ve shoved it down to the abyss, well that is what I assumed in bygone days.
Feeling neutral, and inevitable modestly melancholy. Time does not heal instantaneously but curing doesn’t take forever to occur. The trick is when?
Avoidance, thanks to that I’m a hypocrite in disguise. Perplexed on which step to take next, synchronously wondering why did I decided to bring it all up in the first place.
Facing it without actually dealing the real deal. Look at how words easily got tangled between their own definitions similarly to what my heart tells me. Pour me a heavy load of true atmosphere.
I need to sleep and float on clouds, not forgetting to slide down the vanilla skyline above the thoughts.
Finally, I’m done with all my Russian exam. There is bound to be a few subjects that will demolish part of your neurons, adding more grey to your hair. No pun intended.
I had an amazing lunch at Highway Cafe with a couple of friends of mine, Dennis, Mike, Abraham & Eelin.
Inspired black and white photograph, Mafia wars.
The design of the place seemed like some old construction site with smoking and non-smocking areas that doesn’t compensate with the law since I requested for non-smoking area but there’s still some doltish old lady with a cigarette.
They serve amazing tantalizing food though, Highway burger for instance as well as their whole variety of pizzas to fulfill one’s hungry taste buds. Maybe it’s my suckish skills in photography, that’s why these dishes appear less attractive compared to those bloggers doing food review with their amazing DSLR.
Was extremely tired and got back home for a so-called short nap but only ended up waking at 10.30PM. 7 hours of sleep straight!
18 more days to Kuching :)
Notice the desperation for freedom?
I had 8 hours of exams, Russian practical paper started from 8AM till 5PM. No breakfast and lunch and off I dragged Eelin to McD for dinner. 16 Russian texts to cram into this pathetic brain of mine, and an ending list of Biology themes to cover.
Screw my life totally! [ inserts long lists of profanities ]
I feel insanely dumb, where’s the temporary-existing-Einstein in me that used to exists during exams and stressful periods?!
12 more days till freedom, 22 days till home sweet home.
Side note: Anticipating Apple’s conference regarding iPhone 4’s issue, and… I think I want to get a hard cover shell for my Macbook Pro. Ebay!
Chemistry test was a hell load of problems. We arrived at Chemistry department before 9AM, douche bag fellow wouldn’t allow us to enter; waited for almost half an hour for our Chemistry teacher to come save. But apparently, Russians were sitting for their entrance exam and supposedly the whole building (yes, the ENTIRE building) must be cleared for god knows what reason. Idiots idiots.
Teacher was furious, in rage apparently. Chemistry started around an hour late, we had to sit in the lecture hall without air conditioner nor fans with 42 degrees outside! Wondered how did my brain worked while solving Organic Chemistry.
Bummer, I got a 4 instead of a targeted 5. Lesson learned, don’t learn the complicated, difficult ones and neglect the easy ones.
Went to Khazan and celebrated Kalis’ birthday.
some of their dishes
Their ever famous shaslik
4 days interval for Russian practical and another 4 more days for Russian oral. I’m so going to screw that. On the side note, I bought this wool cardigan-looked piece from Topman thanks to sales.
I mentioned over a million times about summer sales here. It’s officially 2 days till finals and I shall blog for the last time about my cravings. Despite the fact that I’m pathetically bloody poor, I shall be beyond thrifty to fork out some cash. Or maybe cash will undergo binary fission and multiply.
I plan to get TOPMAN outwear garment, ZARA scarf for myself, initially it was a cap but then i realised that I hardly wear caps cause my hair couldn’t breathe (yeah, no wonder I screwed biology sometimes).
Surveyed this designer handbag that caught mine and Mike’s eyes and was planning to get it for mum, but what a bummer when I mistook the price for 970 rubles instead of it’s original 9700 rubles. Haven’t bumped into any cool tee for Vainny yet but will do so after exams.
Other than that, I shall shop for local souvenirs and tea bags!
By the way, I have a new refrigerator and it’s so huge and awesome. Finally I can stock up yoghurts.
At the mean time, I’m still finding motivation to cram Chemistry for Monday. This is the time my brain starts hallucinating, telling me I’m prepared when I’m actually not.
‘Kiasi’ spirit desperately needed since the urge of St. Petersburg vacation and home is overwhelming.
Thanks to coffee, buttery cookies and a pile of Physics notes sheets (did I mentioned a stunning total of 22 themes) and 6 hours of sleep for the past 48 hours, I had 5 for Physics credit. Got my question card regarding sound and thermal radiation, black body as well as electric. Screwed up my part of Plancks’s Law though.
Fact: My brain works on optimum condition if I have 12.5% of sleep for the past 48 hours, simultaneously ruining all osmoregulation related organs – FAIL
The days seems to turn grey, monochromic and melancholy. As I was scribbling a short letter for Hsu Zane as she will be leaving today, it flashed back lots of memories. How she taught me to see all things nice and cute, how to be strong, independent but able to show vulnerability to others.
She’s more than a friend who seen my invincible side of mine. Inspiring and motivating, always telling us “have faith” for God will create many miracles. True enough time has proven this, I thank God for having her as a friend. There’s a saying that the best gifts are wrapped in love and tied with heartstrings; well that’s my Mama Nam.
Sent her off to the train station this evening, it was heartbreaking. Most of us made it, even my Russian teacher, it was a scene of tears. I couldn’t help it myself.
It won’t be the same without her not bugging us every night, asking us “do you have something to tell me? Do you miss me?” almost every night. The truth us, I will surely miss you a lot.
They said that good things come in small packages, well that’s true. God bless you, Mama Nam!
Initially I planned to sleep at 10PM on Saturday night and maybe wake up at 4AM to do a little brain drilling, but then I only managed to doze off around 1AM thanks to football fanatics screaming and shrieking like hyenas; as a result I woke up at 8AM and started to hit the books by 9AM.
What did I studied? Marie Curie got 2 Nobel Prizes… and a miniature portion of the entire Physics book.
*Bangs self on the wall*
Had final lunch with Huey Yee since she’ll be departing to London and back to her hometown together with Eelin, Sheh Yi, her boyfriend & Min Xin.
Leet Liang managed to fly back from mountain hiking to send her off, here’s a final picture together with ‘Mama Kim’. Thanks for teaching us great recipes like butter prawn and fillet with cheese sauce! All the best, we’ll miss you heaps.
I headed to Daniel’s place with Dennis to collect some leftover stuffs from seniors, loaded and fully armed. I got a mirror, some stationeries and 5 new pillows!
Free stuff FTW!
Managed to have my final dinner with Huey Yee before she flies back to her hometown, so Eelin & I brought this doctor to ‘Yakitoria’. Here’s a picture of Huey Yee & I.
Heavenly food that accompanied us that night, but as usual we had to fork out a sum of money for it.
I’m beginning to believe that my braces are working on it’s magic.
Dentist called when I was preparing for my Anatomy control test, it was about to be my turn after Kalis but then bummer, saw an incoming call from him and had to be excused for a while. Head to dentist and some Russian lady was arguing on changing dates with me, so to stop her exasperating blabbering from tormenting my ear drums; I reluctantly changed my date to the next day.
Braces on the lower jaw is extremely troublesome, nastily inducing insufferable pain; I can’t even bite or chew on anything! I had nothing other than yoghurt, ‘tvorog’ and porridge for the past 3 days. Skipped breakfast and lunch or maybe a cup of Milo or coffee, wait.. more than a cup of those to fill my empty stomach.
That was my status on Facebook and Xun Jin replied: “Now...this is depressing. Haha... I dream of beef steak sandwiches..tada haha"
Don’t they have any drugs to prevent people from getting hungry for a whole entire month? That way I can avoid the unnecessary pain and save money at the same time! Kill two birds with one stone.
Booked my train tickets, air tickets, left hostels reservations for St.Petersburg trip, not forgetting a huge lump sum of money I practically burned for all these preparations. I’m facing major economic crisis here, brings all the depression out of me. Yes, I can be exceedingly casted down when facing poverty.
Enough of my rants, internet’s been flooded with complains and rants about the latest iPhone 4. What a bummer! I was initially looking forward to it until all these slowly emerged one by one. God’s signal for me not to dream too much of iPhone I guess?
Yeah, Leet Liang was joyously amused everytime another problem pops out; there’s another stab on my back. Here’s a post regarding that.
Safari 5 appears to be faster than Firefox, my dock icons are so jumbled and mixed up since I have no time tweaking it. My MacPro desktop looks awful currently, suits my mood – AWFUL.
I wish I could just zap myself away and let this month passed by, the stress and pressure is draining away all my smartness and awesomeness away from me.
Btw, some new series Abraham recommended to me ‘Pretty Little Liars’.
