Sun Loves Biochemistry

Source of the things that motivated me:
Chrysanthemum tea made by Andongni
A prayer given by Catherine
Rabbit origami by Fiona
and the blazing summer sun

Exams, I cannot imagine how did I managed to cram the entire two semesters of Biochemistry into this filthy brain of mine; I don’t hate the subject just that it’s really tiring and straining to fully digest all these processes. Between glycolysis, glycogenolysis, gluconeogenesis… their cycles and structures are sufficient to terminate brain function. I was at the lowest peak of time for the entire week preparing for Biochemistry because I am not as ‘lucky’ as most people with insanely excellent class mark, no comments on that. 

Sometimes I wonder what is the point of studying if my class mark is impossible to get me a place of getting a 5 for a certain subject compared to those who ‘somehow’ managed to get their way through an average 90 and above for class mark. It’s discouraging; this system is entirely doltish and obtuse. People like it because they won’t flunk during exams but it does not entirely measure a students’ capability. My seniors have always been reminding me to study for your own sake and not others, it’s pressuring when people encourages me especially at some point when I am cognizant that I cannot achieve the target just because I do not want to let people down. Maybe our Malaysian education system has educated me to a level, which molded my mindset to a certain extend as a whole. 

Never learn, never grow.

Studying alone is a tough thing to do; serious studying makes me tired and unmotivated when I’m not around with people. My emotions fluctuate a lot sometimes when my roommate didn’t have the time to accompany me, proves how pathetically dependent I am towards people. Something that I really need to alter or else it will really ruin my study-mood. 

One last subject this Friday, Physiology. Hopefully there’s something for me to look forward to after finals.