As Said By Tim

Randomly stumbled upon this photograph; what's the best picture to post that can self-remind myself that I've grown up in many ways?

Raw photograph of me when I was a toddler, first and unseen before.

It took me more than two years to partially grasp a firm hold onto it. I tend to seek a confirmation in any sort of relationship, I cannot help it. It’s selfish, appallingly hoggish to expect something in return from others. Personally, I am cognizant by the fact that I treat people by expecting, in return the way they treat me similar to how I treat them. The lack of trust perhaps, according to a good brother of mine that once said to me? I was haunted by a past on how I easily ruined a friendship over the fact that one has to tolerate me for being too pushy and desperate just because I could not find my position in another person’s heart. The constant perpetual desperation due to the lack of trust, basically my fault of being so immature and naïve back then cost a friendship. 

“Why being so bothered on how you want people to treat you?” 

Maybe I should take this break to figure out this properly especially when things are mended and patched back to where it belongs (I hope), just to make sure that I don't have to drag myself back into what's called the past because I really did not like it there.