Thinking Patterns

I think that the insane desire one has sometimes to bang and kick grumblers and peevish persons is a divine instinct. Really? It's mentally involuntary for one to complain and nag about every single shit things that happened. What a negative thinking pattern.

I tend to make a lot of conclusions without any evidence to back up my own conclusions. I am cognizant that his can be a really destructive pattern as it can limit me in seeing reality for what it is.

For example: Most people mentioned that some guy opposite our room is gay, without any hesitation I swallowed that straight away. I must admit, he is very girly in a way; disgust but that doesn't mean that he's gay right? Then again, I chose to believe the rumour rather than to judge it after I seen the truth.

Till now I have no idea he's gay or not, only girly...very

I used to believe that most of the good things don't happen to me. This can be a deep seated way of thinking and it is a deep down inability to believe I am worthy of anything good happening to myself.

Persistent comparison to those that are beyond my limitations. My parents aren't Bill Gates or Martha Stewards, I live in constant moderation. Money doesn't flow in like dissolved oxygen that constantly replenishes my blood. I'm not born with a brain with extremely high IQ; I may not have the best features physically... and this goes on.

But I am raised by amazing parents, not the best financially but definitely the best mentally! So what if I were to were to be a millionaire's son? Most probably I'll just sink in my pool of cash and statically be there till I die, why do I even need to move a single neuron.

I believe in hard work, maybe a little of luck. What is the main agenda of chinese students here in Malaysia? For me, to get a secure scholarship and have a great future. But thanks to Malaysia, this doesn't happen for most of us. Hard work doesn't guarantee a great future, it requires luck. So what if I failed JPA with the amount of As more than my fingers, I still landed in a place sucking money from my parents' pocket. In another way, this teaches me how much they are willing to sacrifice for me.

Thus, this thinking pattern of ‘nothing good to me’ which I used to have, taught me many things.

Self consolation. An issue which I must avoid, it limits the space for one's improvement and refinement and constantly drawing a finite perimeter for oneself.

Take education as an example. Sometimes we screw our exams, where is the line between making the most of one's potential and reaching for the unattainable? But if we ponder upon it, where's lies the borderline between one's maximum potential and one's limiting ability. Yes, we study but when the results are out, it doesn't satisfy us. This exact moment, we blame the teacher for not teaching well, we blame others for having easier questions, we blame everything other than ourself.

All this accusations are made just to console ourselves. The fact is, it's all delusional and only hallucinations. Others do better cause' they deserve more than you do, they are wiling to sacrifice their time and attention more. So next time when something negative hits us, stop self consoling ourselves and start marking out the things we should change in order to alleviate that feeling!

Start admitting that we ourselves can be wrong.

But then again, wouldn't the world be dull and flat without grumbles, complaints, gripes and whines? A little can dwindle off agitation but excessive negative thinking pattern can only bring you down the toilet bowl.