SPM 08 Result

I recalled a day before SPM result day was only filled with silence and melancholy. Dead silence, and I mean every single word of it. Nobody even dare to mention about result day. I spent my whole day burying myself in my room watching anime or DVDs, it was obvious that I’m striving my very best to distract myself from result day. I know – It’s going to suck. I slept at 3.30 AM, surprisingly I found more than 20 friends online on MSN and some on SKYPE. Hyperventilating, fidgety, anxious, it sets a free ground for everyone to do so.I woke up extremely early, around 6AM I guess, feeling energetic or no circumstantial reason. Reached school and had breakfast with Nicole and Felicia while waiting for the others, I expected some ‘extra preparation’ or at least a greeting from the teachers but school today was just typically similar to other days.

I got my results as soon as the teacher allows us to enter, my dad was there too.

Me : My results suck right?

Dad : Don’t know you…

Me : I think suck wor… how?

Dad : If you tried your best then it’s good enough then.

Me : But not all A1, important subjects didn’t even get all A1’s. Then BC still suck so badly.

Dad : A1, A2 doesn’t matter much. It’s better for you to take BC than you totally drop it.

Me : But still.. suck right?

Dad : *smile*

Words from an encouraging father, I called mum after that and said the same thing. Despite the fact that they’re satisfied, I’m personally not satisfied with my own results. But, that is what God gave me so instead of fretting about it, I might as well be satisfied. My phone rang endlessly from approximately 9 AM till afternoon, and a couple more times in the evening and night. Calls from family members, friends, cousins and teachers. Everyone seemed to get way better results than me, especially when most of them tell me blissfully in excitement that they got straight A’s and some straight A1’s [ congratulations to you all ] EST and Biology was again terminating dreams and hopes from what I could observe.

Thanks to God for giving me this result, my parents who supported me both financially and spiritually, teachers who guided me all the way round, friends who motivated me and helped me a lot through the whole process, cousins who inspire me. I really appreciate it a lot.